2.

on the dirty streets, the parade of bodies march up and down in the cold ass night... it all hangs in my numb eyes like an ugly painting, the streetlights and dark alleys... girls in heels with long legs and short skirts... faces half drowned in the shadows and sparkling with an evil glow... cars drive past... assholes honking horns and shouting from the half open windows, stupid fucking grins stapled onto their mouths, hair like porcupine roadkill... the gang of idiots looking in every car mirror with glorious ideas of themselves... down toward the river, there's a spotty row of bars, swirling multicolor lights spitting on the dancefloors and out the windows... all of it deadended with a park, elaborate gardens and a brick walkway winding beside a black railing overlooking the water, where homeless people lean like potential suicides, looking at the city lights and stars reflecting off its deep, dark surface... old statues and sculptures standing on the black grass, frozen in the moonlight... we slowly continued down the police infested sidewalk, finally making it to the club... and as we walked in, i felt like a spider getting sucked down a sewer drain...

we squeezed through the crowd and found an open table, the worst in the place... jim ordered a pitcher, and soon enough, there it was, with four glasses lined up and our money taken away... watching the waitress's ass go along with it... i poured mine first, and then theirs... the music drowning out any other noise, we screamed at eachother trying to convey the simplest of things... eventually we all just drank and looked around, occasionally at our own reflections in the window... jim and his girl, kady, joined the epileptics on the dancefloor and began convulsing themselves... couples making out like they were performing some kind of mutual, life saving mouth to mouth resuscitation on eachother... bambi gave me a look... i wasn't sure whether it was just courtesy, or if she wanted something... i drank the rest of my beer, putting on a fake smile... she smiled back... out of boredom, i was about to try my luck... her eyes blinking like a slot machine...

i found myself pushed up against a wall behind her... hands on her hips, her ass in my blue jeans... she was a violent dancer, bouncing off my groin with excited ferocity... she turned around, the silver necklace on her neck swaying back and forth above her breasts, hypnotizing me... i took the liberty of lifting up her skirt a little, my hands on her thighs moving up toward her ass... we kissed... and then we kissed again... she bit my lips and stuck her tongue inside my mouth, licking my teeth wildly... she grabbed onto my lip and wouldn't let go... pushed me against the wall, turned around again and resumed the dance, crushing me... at some point she caught sight of some of her friends and they drunkenly dragged her away, hugging and kissing cheeks... i stumbled back to my seat...

jim joined me a while later, we ordered another pitcher and checked my blurry watch... we filled up and knocked our glasses together... discreetly scanning for our women through the maze of people... the girls must have miraculously found eachother out there, and come wandering back, sitting down in the empty chairs beside us... they were still talking to eachother, eventually turning their heads to acknowledge us... i poured them a beer and topped me and jim off... kady put her mouth in jim's ear and they disappeared... i guess bambi saw this and pulled hers over to mine, spewing a few syllables... her words flowing out like the liquid in her glass... and in a certain string of nonsense, my brain began to scramble and my stomach turned... i got up, quickly walked out the door and leaned on the cold fence around the patio... desperately pulling out a cigarette, i pushed it between my lips and struggled to light it in the wind... all the people moved in silent slow motion, blank stares aimed at me and then thrown away... i swallowed and tried to focus, accidentally burning a hole in my sleeve... i looked down at it with alot of pain, like somebody had shot me...

nothing seemed to be happening... after a while, i steadied my breathing and walked calmly back inside, scoping out the table where i had left her talking to the wall... i put one foot in front of the other until i got back to my seat... i looked at the table and then at her, passed out face down... her long hair pointing at her drink... i picked it up and finished it...